NOT IN ANY ORDER WHAT-SO-EVER

Katie: was my first friend ever and she's hella beautiful. I think the peak of my life started with her. This was about the time I lived in the living room and it has a sliding glass door. So we had a lot of fun and people were always popping in to hangout, drink, smoke weed, go swimming take pictures and videos. I talk to her sometimes now, but she lives in the Tri-Cities and it's hard for her to get transportation out here. She'll always be my bestie. 

Jeremiah: was the my first real relationship and I'll always have love for him. We were together for about two years until he fucked me over pretty good. I'm not going to go into details but I never looked at him the same after that. I still see him and talk to him all of the time but he's doing really well now up in Job Corps which used to not be the case. Jeremiah and I used to hangout ALL OF THE TIME> One time I swallowed a raw oyster for he could get a ride home.

R.L.Y: Some of my best experiences of my entire life were with this guy right here. I was with him for about a year and a half(: We created a whole new meaning to "Getten' Drunk!". And we had the most fun doing it. I haven't talked to him in a few months and I don't think I'll ever get the chance to again): But I'll always have a lot of love for him and most of his family, but I will NEVER forget him. He's taken a lot of shit for me, got beat for me, got kicked out of a house for me and I won't mention the rest but even after all of that he still called me at night to meet him, talk, or just say goodnight. The only bad thing about this guy is that I'm fifteen and I don't beleiven in "true love" anymore and I think he's a part of the cause. I can't say he's never fucked me over but he can't say that about me either. As much as I wished it would've; We never got to live "Happily Ever After" that we always talked about.

Sammy: I introduced Sammy to drinking and she introduced me to GREAT FOOD. Neither of us can cook that well but we always have someone around who can. Most of the best things I have ever tasted is because of Sam. Other than that she's pretty much my girlfriend. Not even kidding. Sam has never done me wrong like a lot of my "friends" have. Although she's not very reliable.

Karisha: Karisha like Sammy has never done me dirty but she never makes plans with me then flakes out. And I've known her for a long time. We've also been through some shit, though. We always talk about the old days like when probation was unheard of and nobody got into trouble. Yep, those were tha days. But things change and will never be tha same. I think we're closer, now though then we ever were. I reccomend Karisha if anyone's looking for a good friend.

Sabrena: and I haven't been very true to one another over the years especially this past year but we manage to make it through. She's always upbeat and enthusiastic untill she realizes the beer is gone.

Kalen: is my bestfriend(: his mom, too. We're all really close. I know Kalen doesn't have a really good support system so I back him up and we're both canni-clean(clean off weed) Other than that he's the boy that I've never had a bad time with Kalen, even in the worst situations. Plus I'll always have to remember him because he gave me my tattoos. They're a little rough around the egdes but I don't mind.

Tina: I met Tina wayy before we ever decided to become friends. Then she started a realationship with my boyfriend's bestfriend(they're still together). So we did a lot as couples, not like double dating or anything, but that's when I smoked weed and ate a lot and that kind of stuff. I've seen Tina at her worse but it ain't no thang. She and John are going to have a beautiful baby I'm so happy for her.

Calea: has usually been cool about me stayen at her house. She's done a lot for me like feeding, housing, and transporting me. But she probably doesn't even realize it.

Danielle: is probably the kindest female ever. I've known her for a long time but we just started hanging out again and she is really too kind with her cash. Other than that she helps keep the boys in check and does a great jop at it, too. Much love.

Gil-e: is the least suttle person ever. When he walks into the room, you're going to notice. He's got funny jokes but when he runs out you'll know because he'll keep going they'll just get a little whack. I feel like I'm a support system for Gil-e, though too. He has real clean time unlike myself who just has canni-clean time.

Stefanie: is also a really funny person. She's been through a lot of shit since she was about eleven but she's getting by just great now. I introduced Katie to Stefanie and we were all best freinds but of course, that was a while ago. Me and Stefanie still get to see one another every once in a while. She's doin' better than I am that's for sure. Also I can't forget; she was there when I did the worst thing i've ever done... We'll leave it at that.

When I turned fourteen I started to get in trouble with the law and with the system. The first Diversion was just a slap on the hand I had to pay a little bit of money in fines and do some community servicee; no biggy right? That's what I thought too so I didn't finish my community service by the time I was ordered. So I went to court and they changed my Diversion to a Deferred disposition. That didn't seem like it was going to be that bad either until I realized I had to stop smoking weed. My second UA was clean, but I guess I just didn't get it through my head, so I started smoking again. When I gave the dirty UA they ordered me to attend Saint Peter's Chemical Dependancy outpatient treatment and I did. The treatment was fun until the counselor changed and now it makes me miserable just to think about. Anyways, I was doing pretty good with the whole treatment and rafraining from weed thing but I was drinking A LOT.

On my way home from a court review I saw a few friends that had came into some money and were getting some things together to rent a hotel room and I told them that I would meet them later at the hotel. Well when I got there it was about six o'clock. I walked in and made some jokes about how it was a sausage fest because it was all guys and they dind't even know for sure whether or not I was going to show up. But we bullshitted for a little while and tried to cook a papa murphey's pizza on the heater. We had a half gallon and some beer but when the bottle was about half way gone we went to the smoking section to smoke and Joe; the guy who's money it was to rent the hotel left the key inside. We thought it was going to be okay until when his mom came to get the key because she was the only one who was over 18; but when she saw the drunkest guy there; she didn't want to let us stay. I didn't mind and I was going to go home. I had a ride with a couple of other people to RedApple so I figured I'd walk from there. When we got there Joshua told me he was going to walk me home after he got out of the bathroom so I sat on the other side of the explorer and waited. After about thirty seconds I heard aggressive yelling so I peeked to see what was going on. Joshua was starting an argument with some other strangers over God knows what. I decided to see what was going on, but I couldn't get in there without almost getting hit so I pushed Joshua away. But I couldn't calm him down with the other guys charging at him so I pushed them away, and they were BIG guys. But when I pushed them it was either their girlfriend on sister got really mad and started yelling at me. So there I was in the middle of my friend, two big guys he was trying to fight, and a BIG bitch. Calming anyone down wasn't an option at this point, and I was a little drunk myself. I couldn't explain what I was trying to do to the girl unless I got in her face and yelled but she still wasn't going to have it. The bitch hit me with her flip flop. I stepped back all mad and out of the corner of my eye I saw a RedApple employee walking out with a flashlight and something else in his hands.

I was about to walk away because I noticed the girl was pregnant and I didn't want to get made fun of for beating up a pregant girl. I had Joshua by my side and I took about six steps.

"I called the cops, and if you go; I'll taze you!" That was the end. He didn't really have a tazer and it's illegal for someone unauthorized to taze you but he lied about a lot of stuff. The guy told the cops that Joshua and I beat the shit out of the pregnant girl and the two big guys were still in the store. He also said he had no tazer ann didn't threaten me.

I got five charges that night: MIC(Minor in consumption), Assault 3, two assault 4s and destruction of property(I spit in the back of the cop car).

I did sixty days in juvie and 60 days on electrical home monitoring. Before I went to juvie I said fuckit and smoked weed cause I was going in anyways and got like a week's more time.

Since I've been off house arrest I got a dirty UA with alcohol and I haven't smoked weed at all. I have to do weekends in detention for five weeks and we'll see what happens from theree;

That survey on my other blog is court ordered for part of my sentence for this dirty UA.

Thanks for your timee; HopeEmilyxoxoo

Thank you Hope. I know that people do lie, and I'm sorry that happened to you. I appreciate your sharing this.

Everybody has their pet peeves; here are some of minee.

When people say "no offense," but then they offend you.

Warm beer.

When 4, 6, 7, 8, 9, and 10 year olds cry like newborns.

When people message me and just say hi, or what's up.

When you're walking down tha road and old people say "Hi, how are you?" It's like "It's none of your business how I am.

Immature little girls.

Proabation, cops, the system.

There's lotz moree.

Okay. I have a proposition for ya;;

It was a while ago; but everyone knows about RKelly getting some type of rape charge for peeing on a fourteen year old girl. There's videos of her encouraging it, and itcourt she also admitted that she wanted RKelly to piss on her. The courts reported that she was too young to make her own decisions and didn't know what she was getting herself into;;

Around the same time across the US in Florida a fourteen year old black kid was wrestling with his 15 year old neighbor with Smackdown playing on the T.V; The court reported that he was old enough to make his own decisions when he killed his neighbor and is still in adult prison.

JUST THINK ABOUT IT.

Mighty interesting. Where did you get this information?

I have to create a survey that was court ordered. It has to be about the way people bahave while they're intoxicated and other things like that. Here are the requireents; 20 questions, survey fifty people, and with the results report it to the court and city counsil.

The questions are actually statement and the answers range from strongly agree to strongly disagree. Here's the problem. I only have 15 questions and I need 20. I also need some feedback on how good the questions are. In a few days I should have the survey ready to be given so if you want to take feel free to ask me.

Here are my questions so far;

1. The first time I smoked weed it was with a family member or someone close to my family.

2. I have engaged in risky behaviors while intoxicated.

3. I have gotten in trouble with the system and alcohol was a factor.

4. I have friends and/or relatives over 21 who buy me alcohol.

5. I don't live in a clean enviroment most of the time.

6. I spend more than half of the money I get on drugs and/or alcohol.

7. I drinkoutside a lot of the time.

8. I've been to the hospital because I used too much.

9. It's easier for me to get weed than alcohol.

10. I got in a car wreck while the driver was drunk.

11. I've missed 7 or more days of school due to getting drunk or high.

12. I drink because it tastes good.

13. I drink because it's a cheap way to have fun.

14. Marijuana was my gateway drug.

Thankyou for your timee! Feedback would be great!

Hope,

Hey. you've got some great questions here! I especially like #1, 4, 5. 8 & 10. regarding #8, you should specify what you mean by "used too much". #'s 12 & 14 can go, but here are some suggestions: Suggest alternatives to using drugs or alcohol; more questions about family members and friends who use, and their behavior. More questions about individual's behavior while intoxicated, more questions about when, why and how often the individual drinks. Hope this helps.

I’m Hope, I’m from Washington. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and shit will fall into place when it’s meant to. My heart is ten times too big for my own good. I’m very easy to get along with. I’m kind of shy until I can warm up to you; which usually doesn’t take that long. I surround myself with people who keep me grounded for what I believe in. I tend to build walls until you give me a reason to let my guard down. I’ve make a billion and one mistakes and I’m going to make a billion and two more! I just have to learn from myself and not anyone else.